I’d like to share with you one of the many strange rituals I participate in when I’m feeling confused, ungrounded, lost… or just in need of mental / spiritual clarity.
If you’ve been watching my videos long enough, you understand what I mean when I say “Your Mind IS Your Body.”
It has been my experience that through deep breathing and exercise, specifically exercises that elicit spontaneous movement in the body, we might be able to transcend the limitations of the ego and reach deep into our unconscious where there may be valuable pearls of wisdom laying for us to discover.
It has been through my practice of various forms of “body meditation” that I’ve come into contact with a powerful, non-linear intelligence that I believe guides my steps, weather I acknowledge it – or not.
These meditations, which include Bioenergetics and Yoga, remove the barrier of ego by helping the consciously-controlled striated muscular system to move into deep relaxation, while allowing the spontaneous activity of the visceral system (or autonomic nervous system) to move into my conscious awareness.
I have learned to trust that the spontaneous symbols or words that come to my attention while I’m in deep muscular relaxation arise from this powerful unconscious intelligence.
When you watch my videos, especially the ones on my Elliott Hulse channel, often times you are watching the movement of this intelligence trough me.
Because I meditate before making the videos, and I focus on deep breathing before, during (you’ll notice I stop and open my mouth to let out a big sigh every so often) and in between making videos, “I” Elliott Hulse, my ego, has been dropped and whatever comes out of my mouth I can not take full credit for. (Although this is not always the case, its what I strive for in most cases)
Of course, the things that proceed from my mouth are influenced by my experiences, circumstances and physical features… just like the size, shape and condition of a flute influence the music that the musician makes though it. But the flute makes its music only by the skill, creativity and intelligence of the musician.
The musician breathes into (or inspires) the flute which brings music, in the same way that God inspires (or breathes into) us to make music, the music of our lives.
The point of my sharing this with you is not to prove anything or convince you to follow my ways. I share this only so that you might gain some insight as to how I make choices and navigate my life. All of the most important decisions I’ve made over the past 10 years have come by the processes which put me into closer contact with the language of my heart, my gut and The Holy Spirit.
I trust my feelings because I am deeply in touch with them.
I also trust the linear powers of my logic and analytical skills in recognizing patterns and deciphering symbols. Often I will get a feeling about a thing, then I use my analysis of a symbol or pattern to help me understand what I was feeling. For me, this has been a winning approach.
If I can make sense of what I am feeling, then I am satisfied and I simply move on.
If I can not make sense of a thing, I will attempt to go into deeper meditation and look for words or symbols that my unconscious intelligence wants me to receive.
And THAT is how this picture, from a set of tarot cards, made it’s way into my consciousness last week.
Although it may come as a shock to some of you, Elliott Hulse is NOT always “above it all.”
My ego (or exterior), can be fragile, just like anyone else’s. There are times when my exterior is attacked and it pierces straight though to my heart, like a sword through a chest plate.
When a blind sighted ego-attack touches me deeply I have stop and ask myself, “What am I not seeing clearly about this situation?” or “What is the deeper pain that is being stimulated by this attack?”.
Like I’ve said in some of my videos… “when someone attacks you, it is best to take responsibility and ask yourself how you might be creating this.”
So, without going into details… late last week I received a blow that penetrated into my heart.
My heart felt broken.
An attack that does not penetrate deep to the heart can be easily brushed off or logically explained away. But an attack that you FEEL IN YOUR BODY reaches the deep non-linear intelligence of your visceral system as I described above.
When a feeling is visceral (in your organs and peripheral nervous system), it is SERIOUS. Not because of the content of the attack or circumstances, but because anything that touches you that deeply has the capacity to change your mood and ultimately your character. A broken heart will show up in your body, on your face, and be reflected back through the faces in your environment.
Feeling are serious, and should be recognized for their alchemical powers. Always consider the deep psychological and spiritual implications of your feelings.
Again, DO NOT become entangled with the circumstances which created the feeling (ie. someone yells at you). Instead, go deep and try to discover why YOU have chosen to feel this way. The feeling belongs to YOU, so don’t blame anyone else. And be sure to explore yourself, as objectively as possible, before offering a counter attack or defending yourself in any way (unless there is a gun to your head, then fuck him up!).
In exploring my broken heart last week the symbol of a lion shackled to sheep came to mind. I’ve seen this picture before and it seemed to explain what I was feeling, so I went looking for it.
Now that I had something that symbolized my feelings I needed to “go deep” and discover the roots of my pain.
On the surface I felt like a lion, a powerful king who happened to be laying with a herd of soft, weak, cowardly, lamb who’ve provoked me. On the surface, I knew that a counter-attack upon the sheep I’m bound to would be a murderous bloodbath. I have the strength and the hunger to devour them all, and leave the meat I did not eat rot for the parasites and lay prey for the hyenas!
But again, this was all on the surface. My instant reaction is too ego centered. Just because you can devour the herd, doesn’t mean you should. In fact, I am going to show you why THE LION NEEDS THE LAMBS.
So, with this symbol in hand I did two things.
First, I wanted to get you (my viewers / readers) involved. I wanted to see what kind of insights I might receive back from the “mirror of my external world”. I put it out there to see what you might show me.
Then, I went into an hour long dynamic meditation where I shook my body and danced for over 40 minutes, followed by a 20 minute silent pause and deep relaxation.
As expected, I gained powerfully vivid insights into the realities of life… my life.
My mind took me though a series of physical polar opposites, such as condensation (rain) and evaporation; inhalation and exhalation; and the systole & diastole pressures of the heart.
I began to experience the feeling of gratitude that comes with exhalation after a long inhalation, or holding of the breath.
I began to feel the reality that although they may appear to be complete opposites, The Lion and The Lamb are a UNITY just like crest and trough of a frequency wave.
About midway though my meditative dance I yelled out with joy, “The Lion Shall Lay With The Lamb”. I continued to say this mantra out loud while continuing my joyful dance of reconciliation.
THE LION SHALL LAY WITH THE LAMB!
The implications of such a statement go far beyond the image of a fierce lion laying with a flock of mild lambs. It goes even further than the polar temperaments of a strong and powerful lion and the weak and mild sheep.
This statement dives deep into the heart of a PRINCIPLE for living a successful life.
Because in this case I am the lion (there are cases where I am the sheep also, not this time though), I am going to proceed with insights gained in order that they might help the lion better cope with his INEVITABLE circumstances.
1. I say “inevitable circumstances” because the lion will ALWAYS have to confront the lamb. They are as inseparable as night from day, or up from down. The coin is always two sided, and there is a spot for the lamb just as much as there is a spot for the lion.
2. The lion might choose to destroy the flock due to an infraction by a rogue clique within, but then he looses the majority who mean him no harm. He will also cause fear and confusion amongst the surviving lamb, and in their fear they may choose to pasture elsewhere leaving him without balance.
3. If the lion thinks himself “too strong” to be concerned with the opinions or going-ons of the lamb he may choose to ignore them completely. To ignore them is to check out of the relationship which in some cases might create imbalance. The lion requires the sacrificial lamb for his nourishment.
And although they might be ignorant of the fact, the sheep also need the lion for his example of strength, honor, dignity and for their protection against more sinister creatures. In fact, the lamb can become so brash and arrogant that he forgets how the lion has protected him and begins to think of himself as a lion.
I believe that this example is the most hurtful to the lion’s heart, especially if he is not aware enough to rise above the details and circumstances.
4. The lion must ALWAYS initiate. He must take the lead. This is not a judgment against the lamb, or in favor of the lion’s power, it’s just a statement of reality. The lion moves first, the lamb follows the lead. If you know yourself to be a lion, you have no choice but to take decisive action.
Often when you take action, the lamb will defend himself with lies, or simply run and hide. But that is what lambs do, they have a responsibility to protect themselves also. The lion must recognize that this is simply the character of the lamb, to expect something else is like expecting the sun to appear at midnight.
5. Learn to appreciate the lamb. Although they may feel like a heavy burden to carry, they are an intricate part of what makes you a lion. Without the sacrifice of the lambs life, the lion would die of starvation. Even if they can not receive it, due to an overly inflated ego which creates blind spots and blockages in their character, offer them your gratitude.
Remember, it is NEVER about the other person or the circumstances. The moment comes into it’s full power when you take full responsibility for your thoughts, feelings and actions.
And finally, when I posed the picture above to my Instagram account I told you that I’d be awarding a prize to the person with the best caption. Here is the one I chose:
“Become Friends With Your Food”
As soon as I read this line, I felt it in my body! So, it was right.